heartsong

in the silence of our hearts,there is a song that only we can hear. there is a song that only we can sing. in the silence of our hearts, there is a song that we are invited to sing forever with our Lord of love... with our Lord of songs

awit ko, awit Mo

may awit ang pusong
umiibig sa 'Yo
may lulang pag-asang
mula sa puso Mo
kahit minsa'y kay layo
hinahanap Mo ako
at marahang inaayang
bumalik sa piling Mo

may awit ang pusong
umiibig sa 'Yo
may lulang pag-asang
iingatan Mo ako
kahit minsa'y di binawi
aruga't kalinga Mo
sa buhay ko'y labis
ang pagpapala Mo

ako ngayo'y umaawit sa 'Yo
ng buong buhay ko, ng buong puso ko
nang matahak ang landas
na S'yang nais Mo
nang mayakap
ang awit ko
ng awit Mo

dec.25.2k6

*photo taken @ nadela residence, busay, cebu city

copyright dougs joson may2006

pasko sa canto

canto cinco (c5) celebrated this year's Christmas with a mini-concert for friends and family at the san jose seminary chapel last dec23. here are some pictures of the concert entitled "Pasko sa Canto." more pictures are available on canto cinco's multiply page. just click on the link below.
http://cantocinco.multiply.com/photos/album/12

an ode of lament

since we are on the matter of relationships (cf. previous blog entry, nicking numbers), i'd like to share a recent poem about sadness.

although acknowledging our sadness may lead some to despair and desolation, i believe that a healthy awareness of this particular aspect of our lives helps ground us in whatever relationships we choose to enter into or leave behind.

sadness


there is a sadness of the heart
that can never be dismissed
by a wave of wit
nor drowned
by a sea of smiles

for it is a sadness
that speaks more personally
than the crowd of life

for there is a sadness
that sings more tenderly
with the poetry of silence
and the whispers
of the heart



111206, sun
11:38pm - to all that was, is and will be

*photo taken @ boracay island, copyright dougs joson may2006

nicking numbers

[the following was originally meant as a class reflection

for philoma classes in dls-csb 2nd term sy2k6-2k7]

the other day, a friend of mine told me that she would be changing her cellphone number. when asked why, she told me that the previous number had so many bad memories from so many broken relationships, that she wanted to move on from them all. this led to a series of txt msgs about the meaning, nature and purpose of love and the risk of getting rejected or hurt.

i told her that while the possibility of rejection was part of the risk of opening up to someone, most of the time we are actually unaware of the unspoken expectations we bring into the budding relationship. when we are unaware of these expectations, we cannot effectively communicate to the other person where we are coming from and where we wish the relationship to go to. if we fail to communicate, how can we expect the other party to respond in kind? all we would be reading from the other person's actions is how s/he did not go out of their own selves and reach out to us.

more importantly, if we do not get to the bottom of why our relationships fail, we are bound to repeat them again and again. we could end up with a litany of how people did not understand us enough, how this or that person wasn't that considerate enough, and so on and so forth. instead of timeless testaments to the healing and binding nature of love, we may become bitter and usually obnoxious prophets of woe.

from my own wounded experience, i have realized (thankfully, with the help of more experienced people) that the following questions are important to ask at any time in the relationship.

(1) why do we feel the need to enter into the relationship in the first place?

(2) are we aware of the demands we impose upon the other person?

(3) are we aware of how willing or unwilling we are to change ourselves to make the relationship work?

(4) is the other person aware of his/her own demands and (un)willingness?

(5) do any or both of us communicate effectively and honestly to each other?

believe me, these are not easy questions to answer. in fact, these are the questions that may take a lifetime to realize that they need to be asked in the first place. long after we have begun new relationships or ended old ones, these are the questions that stay with us.

and, no matter how many times we have replaced our cellphone numbers, these are the questions that are bound to remain.

choral convergence

taken @kapihan in jescom last sunday after a choir practice that turned out to be a mini-reunion for longtime unseen members.

photo by ms.triciapar

crossroads

now

i take this path
only because of the hope
of finding You
once again

,

to where i've always been
from where i've always been
with You i'll always be

with me

.


*in loving gratitude to the Jesuits of the Philippine Province

gracias

hay...

ang saya ng summer kasama ang mga kaibigan!

ang sarap-sarap ng mga pagkaing pinoy...

ang ganda-ganda ng pilipinas!

ang bait-bait ni Lord!

+amdg!


*photo taken @ boracay island, copyright dougs joson may2006